"Hai orang2 yg beriman,

janganlah harta-hartamu

dan anak-anakmu melalaikan

kamu daripada mengingati Allah.

Barangsiapa yg berbuat demikian maka

mereka itulah orang-orang yang rugi' - Al-Munafiqun, 63-9

Wahh ... cute nye bdk itew ... time kaseyyyy .... heheh... ni time kna pi kem Bina Semangat nih ... belum cukup semangat lagik agaknya wa nih ... masa nih baru 2 weeks join TM. Junior seyhh ... kena ler join ... walaupon dlm hati, "mak tak rela, nyah ...."

Masa pi kem PLKN nih yg bestnya tang tido kat dorm ... hukhuk ... best giler ... dah ler kami peserta terakhir yg melapor diri kat kem tu & bakal ditutup operasi dia x lama lagi ... nmpk sgt ler byk tmpat2/alatan dia yg dh x brp sesuai diguna pakai lg ... dah nasib...

Tp part yg menarik nya, mesti tang main paint ball ... da best experience ever ... rasa mcm perang btoi plak ... wpon kalah tp puas hati dpt spot & dumped 2 enemies... enough lah ... utk org baru nak belajar shoot macam wa nih ... thanks to TM coz gave the valued experience to me ... tercapai gak hasrat main shoot2 wpon hasrat nak jadik army tak tercapai ... nak jadik army camner, dah wa kontot ... :( redho jer lahhh...

Satu lagi part best, time dgar motivasi dari Dr Fadhillah Kamsah,... best tahap cipan siot... time dengar tu, rasa macam nk terus balik ofis & trus nk buat kja ... btapa smngat nya nk kja time tuh ... tp bila dah balik ofis, ropa2nya semangat tinggal semangat jer ... hikhik ... Cuma 1 jer yg wa rasa wa ikut nasihat Dr tuh ... "sebelum tidur, maafkan segala kesalahan kwn2 kamu, kesalahan bos kamu & kesalahan sesiapa jua pd hari itu" ... InsyaAllah akan jadik amalan sepanjang hidup & akan istiqamah melakukannya ... Amin ... :)

Smpai disini shj, jmpa lagi .... :)

.:: wake up ::.

wake up SiZuKa,
frustrated is nonsense,
u deserve to get more than him,
more than it,
more than everything,...
chaiyok !!!

Masak lemak ikan bilis

Cuti maulidurRasul.... janji ngn Pn Sri Sharifah nk pi umah dia..

tp cancel last minute... tak pa... gua tak marah...

gua jenis cool beb... byk benda blh dilayan cuti2 nih...

Cuti2 nih biasak la,.. bangun lmbt... takpa, overslept... bkn sengaja...haha....

lapaq la plk... gua combine skali lah breakfast n lunch.... save budget gua...haha....

kalau mcm ni slalu, gua blh beli mansion nih....harharhhar...

Ari ni gua bikin masak lemak ikan bilis... layan....

Bhn mentah tu tu jek ada kt dapur bujang gua... nk buat camnoo...

resepi bodo dia ni ha...

1. tumis bwng putih, cabai n bwg merah smpai naik bau guna minyak ikan bilis

2. masuk santan, biar didih, masuk sayur2an, carrot n bwg bsr yg dipotong

3. masuk ikan bilis, n perasa.

4. siap, makan... haha..

jadi lah... resepi bujang. gua mkn smpai bertmbh... tak buat lauk lain dh...

hidang dgn nasik & air sirap... burkkkk... Alhamdulillah.. kenyang nya... :-)

the best gift

to frenz
~ loyalty

to enemy
~ forgiveness

to superior n boss
~ obedience

to younger
~ role model

to older
~ honor n tribute

to couple / spouse
~ love n affections

to human
~ free, liberty n independence

where's da fire?

Mana mungkin aku boleh hidup lagi,
kalau hatiku sudah tiada..
aku sudah tidak memiliki hati lagi...
hatiku dibawa pergi ~~~

::IT'S NOT GOODBYE ::

You'd think I'd be strong enough to make it through,
And rise above when the rain falls down,
But it's so hard to be strong,
When you've been missing somebody so long.
It's just a matter of time I'm sure,
But time takes time and I can't hold on,
So wont you try as hard as you can,
To put my broken heart together again?

Until the day I let you go,
Until we say our next hello,
It's not goodbye.
'Till i see you again,
I'll be right here remembering when,
And if time is on our side,
There will be no tears to cry on down the road,
There is one thing I can't deny,
It's not goodbye.

~~last open house for this syawal~~

Weekend ni ada 7 doors yg buat open house... huhu.. aku xtau nak gi umah mana satu...

• Old skoolmet ~ Damansara
• Mr. fesbuk ~ S.Kembangan
• Bff ~ Kepong
• ex-colleague ~ S.Alam
• In-Law to be ~ BTR
• Acik Restaurant ~ P.Dalam
• Acik Nasi Kerabu ~ P.Dalam

Kena pilih2 r yg mana aku nak gi. Overdos ..hehe.. dahla mkn free ajer... Tapi kalau pi semua ok gak.. hehe.. blh hubungkan silaturrahin... hehe.. ada yg lama x jmpa tuh... tgk la.. tgh pikir2 ni.. smpat lagi.. semua majlis start pukul 2...

Teringat masa baca blog Pakkordi (hehe.. jgn marah pak.. baca tanpa ijin..). Pakkordi kata, x perlulah mengomel bnda2 yg x sepatutnya bila kita dh pgi open house tu... dahla makan free, ye dok? hehe... ini ayaq tawar kurang manis, komplen... mi kari kuah x ckp likat komplen, langsir warna merah komplen... hehe... Thanks Pakkordi... open house next year aku janji x kan komplen2 dah... tq la to Sis As, Reen, Sis Neat n Fadzli sbb jmput aku dtg open house umah korang... taun dpn kita serbu umah K.Zue n K.Pah lak no... :-)

Semlm aku tertido dpn laptop masa berfesbuking + download lagu youtube... sdr2 pagi ni pukul 8 pagi... huhu... hasilnya:

• Terlepas subuh.. kena qada' la. Nasib.
• Laptop tak tutup. Battery kong. Haru.
• Kesejukan. Lupa nak tarik selimut.
• Pintu bilik tak kunci. Naseb baik pencurik tak masuk. Lega.
• Baju lupa nak sidai. Kena bilas balik. 2 kali kja. Amik. Padan muka aku.

Tapi ok gak. Sebab aku dpt mimpi mkn2 ngn Romeo yg bru jinak2 nk jadik baik sbab aku... wakaka... Ada ker di alam nyata nih...

~~ I wonder if last nite the aliens had abducted me ~~

Scorpio ~ being so gifted

OCTOBER 21st~NOVEMBER 20th : Symbols for Scorpio is Scorpions, a ground-dwelling killer with a poisonous stings in its tail. Be careful with them (bahaya ker I nih? xder la biasa2 jer..he3)

In dangerous situations and in sudden crises, they remained cool and determined (cool?..btol..btol..btol.. actually sajer buat2 cool, padahal dh gubra giler tahap gaban). Representatives of this sign often become workaholics. (yeah....mmg rajin pun... seems hard to deny it...heheh) They drive themselves hard and usually drive others unmerciffuly. (xder la sampai force org lain sama...huhu) They despise weaknesses in themselves or in others. The worst fault is that they are too adaptable to the people with whom they come in contact. (btol la rasa... cpt sgt adapt... ssh la gini... abih kamceng ngn acik2 kedai mkn kt p.dalam tuh... nnti nk try mintk mkn free laks... wakaka)

In business and politics, they have clever ideas and best as advisor of others. They usually excel in settling other peoples' quarrels and bringing enemies together to shake hands (wah... boleh jdik pendamai PBB nih)

They have strong personal magnetism, many friends and many enemies. No other groups in other zodiacs, can challenge them in making friends and enemies... (aik musuh pn ramai... cpt ngaku sape musuh wa.... sng nk blacklist nnti)

Scorpio are complexs, deep, mysterious and difficult to figure out. They might appear calm and collected outwardly but lurking inside could be a seething emotional volcano waiting to burst out (yeah... nmpk jer cool tapi tggu masa jer nk meletup...like volcano)

they have better chance of becoming geniuses than the native of other sign.. (ayarks...ye ker), they are pleasant to be with, thoughtful in conversation, dignified, courteous and they possess penetrating eyes which can make their shyer companions feel naked and defenseless before them... (penetrating eyes ker? xder la tgk sampai nk telan org...heheh).... being in Scorpio group is such being so gifted...mmm...

mengapa cinta semakin sukar dimiliki

zeta,

bagaimana mau melewati indahnya fajar pagi,

andai kamu tidak pernah berani melewati pekat malam?

~a friend in need is a friend in deed~

for me, a new friendship like an unripened fruits, it may become an orange or a lemon...

if we know how to treat friends well, then they will treat you well because we know dat 'what goes around will comes around'.... whatever talks, and acts will came back to us either good or bad...

u olls prcya tak bila ada sesetgh orang kata, kita x blh percaya pd

sesiapa pn? heheh...

but in my opinion, mana boleh macam tu..... when we didnt believe anyone, hidup pn mcm x happy sbb kita mestila nk share ngn member2 about our problems kan?

cuma kadang2 rasa gak macam, 'eh, leh percaya ker dgn dia ni?'... aku pernah gak rasa cam tu... dan kalau aku ada prob, I can't simply keep it as secret... selalu kalau ada problem,.. rasa nk bercerita tapi xtau nk story ngn saper .... I need a loyal n good listener but do not misunderstood aku percya semua kwn2 aku becoz bagi aku, everyone is a friends until they prove otherwise...

kalau dh terbukti dia mmg x leh dipercayai n was betrayed you before, so you can delete him from your true friends' list....

kawan2 ramai....yg boleh dipercayai pn ramai actually,... cuma sometimes, segan nk meluahkan problem dan apa2 yg terbuku dihati.... cerita skit2 tu blh la.... but kalau ada apa2 prob, to tell the whole story rasanya aku belum mampu....

kalau rasa masalah dh x tertanggung sgt, aku biasanya akan buat: love problem aku cerita dgn si A, friendship prob aku story ngn si B n family prob normally aku cerita ngn si C.... it's not due to unbelieve towards anyone, tapi ssb kesian gak kan nk story ngn member2, they olls pn ada prob diorg sndiri yg kita x tau...

takkan kita nk jadi kera sumbang kan? kemana-mana pn sorang jer... bukan org yg xnk kawan ngn kita tp kita yg x bg space and options to them to enter into our life...

and remember 1 things, a true friends will forever with u no matter what colour you are...masa time u oll sedih ker (mesti muka kaler merah), mood marah ker (muka kaler biru kot) ataupun u oll tgh happy (maybe in pink kaler...heheh)... they will always be with u..

actually a true friends like a siblings that God never give us...

~haRgaiLah aPa yG kiTa miLiki~

kita akan merasa kehilangan apabila sesuatu yg kita miliki hilang dari diri kita... betulkan? if we never faced with this lost, we never realized what its/he meant to us... so, hargailah apa yg kita miliki sekarang... sbab kita takkan selama-lamanya memiki apa yg kita ada...

it would be a blessing if a person could be blind or deaf for 2 days during his grown-up life... it would make them see and appreciate their ability to experience the sound of joy.... yer ,..paling tidak saat mendengar suara .... mmm... can't imagine how i appreciate what i had now...

try to imagine, during that time, we cant see our beloved people arround us... we cant hear their voice, tak boleh mendengar desiran ombak, birunya langit, terangnya matahari.... nak dengar muzik pun x leh, apatah lagi nak gi karaoke...heheh.... terasa pulak....

tentu dua hari tersebut hari yg cukup berat utk kita kan?.... if reduced to 2 hours pun ckp berat rasanya... kemewahan inilah yg kita lupa untuk syukuri.... KESEMPURNAAN..

kita sering mengeluh.... tttg apa2 yg kita tak ada, apa2 yg kita kekurangan, selalu membandingkan dgn kelebihan org lain ... padahal setiap org punya kelebihan masing2 yg kita tidak sedari .... padahal org2 sekeliling kita menggangap kekurangan yg kita rasa tu adalah suatu kelebihan yg org lain tidak miliki.... but we never realized it... so hargailah..

~rindu tercipta~

no overload job dis week...wah.... no tension, no headache', no pressure,...heheh... like I'm in heaven.... so peace, so lovely, so calm,....heheh... if things gonna be as smooth as dis week, argh.... what a happy life... what a happy world... heheh... no emo, no moody, no mood swing.... wow.... exactly like cinderella found her another half golden shoes, like snow white being kissed by her prince charming..hehe.. day dreaming btul...huhu..

think like heartless to resign and leave dis company... aku syg woo semua org dlm comp especially Lau & SKK..(wakaka.. mcm la diorg tu bestfriend aku laks)... dis comp taught me a lot bout friendship.. gave me experience in handling inner emotion n led me the way to lead... although it was only 7 month I wuz here but feel like 7 years... (heheh..tipu sgt... dont believe dis sentence ok..)

bos Kelvin, bos AsRa n bos Zurainie... scold me if I did anything wrong, critic me if I did mistake n blame me I if did something dat will make u angry... but be fair to me...praise me if I did something good, smile to me if I did a great job n grade me if I made something very well... (heheh...nak jgk org puji... cheh)...i need all the support n help that I can get thru u all...

million thanks becoz believed me a lot thru giving me responsibilities as well as believed da qualities in me.... (heheh...perasan).. thousand thanks coz tittled me top 5 staff.... (heheh... bagi org lain la pulak....) ...

dear oll my colleagues, I had my greatest time while working wit u olls... u olls gave full cooperation, easy to share problem, follow the 'gila-gila' idea aku ajak diorg gi picnic..., million thanks coz give me a shoulder to cry on and thousand thanks becoz being a good listener....

I hope, I can, I will survive for a long, long time......

~gooDbye mY freNz~

listen little child

there will come a day

when u will be able

able to say

never mind the pain

for the aggravation

u know there's a better way

for you and me to be

look for the rainbow

in every storm

fly like an angel

heaven sent to me

goodbye my fren

and I know U're gone

U said U've gone

but I can still feel U're here

it's not the end

gotta keep it strong

before the pains turns into fear

so glad we made it

time will never change it

just a little girl

big imagination

never letting no one take it away

went into the world

what a revelation

we found there's a better way

for u and me

look for the every rainbow

find out the certains

gonna be there for u

u know it's time to say goodbye

we never dreamt you'd go

to find your own way

goodbye my fren

it's never be the end

time will never change it

viva forever

our friendship

..akU..diA..&..ciNta..

adaPtasi dR nOveL jajA diN nukiLaN noveliS kesuKaaN akU nooR suraYa

rupa2nya cinta telah membawa hatiku

terbuai-buai kesana kemari

tanpa berhenti dimana-mana lampu isyarat

kata orang 'luv is blind'... that premise was fluently at my tongue...until i meet him..now I think I was blind becoz choose him, not others...

kata org... cinta itu meruntuhkan dinding rasa... actually I wont believe it until his eyes first look at me... bermula dari saat itu, aku rasa hati aku ni sdh sesat tiada jln pulang...

kata orang,..cinta yg paling agung adlh cinta laila kpd majnun..I was denied it...padaku saat ini, cinta yg paling agung adlh cinta aku pd dia.... (huh...x tau malu sungguh)

aku ingin jadi langit yg dilindungi awan

kisah aku ni actually crita biasa tp aku sengaja jadikan ia luar biasa...ia lah,..x ramai yg punya kisah mcm aku ni.. sbb aku yg terpaut pada dia.. so, for sure I like him more that he likes me....or actually he never likes me...(owh..sedihnye..) aku mmg suka ckp byk,...sbb tu lah dia x sukakan aku agaknya...dia baru sepatah ..aku dah lima patah...isk...overnya aku...

aku mengharapkan dialah awan yg melindungi langit

aku bknnya xde rupa...haha..puji diri sendiri plk.. bila bercinta selalu halfway jer...knapa yek? yg aku suka, x suka plk kt aku....tp yg suka kt aku...aku x plk ada apa2 rasa dkt dia...sshnya jadi aku...ada yg mula bertanya pd my mom...'ank dara sulong tu x kawen lgi ke...?(kah3..aku la tu).....adik dia dh kawen dah'...huhu ...tp slh aku ke?...bkn x kesian pd mom....tp aku harus kesiankn aku dulu bila dtg bab jodoh ni... aku sndiri yg akan pilih lelaki yg akan menemani aku seumur idop aku, dia yg akan menemani hari tua aku, aku yg akan lihat dia hari2, not my parents......

jatuh cinta membuat kita terbuai2

keseluruh alam

tanpa ingin berhenti dimana-mana perhentian..

iyer, jatuh cinta buat aku sering alpa dan lupa siapa, bila dan dimana aku berada... made me forgot to love myself kerana sibuk menganyam mimpi bersama dia....buat aku lupa mengintai pada yg lain, buat aku tak teringtkn utk memikirkan lamaran yg lain...huhu..

aku & dia bagaikan malam dan siang..

tidak mungkin lagi bertemu...

hanya sebuah fatamorgana

aku ni mmg pelikkan? cinta pada orang yg tak cintakan aku...syg pada org yg x prnh peduli kewujudan aku....suka pd orang yg pandang aku sblh mata pn tak... aku dan dia ibarat bulan dan matahari yg tidak akan sesekali accident dipaksi.. he3..tapi bukan sehari aku memahat cinta pada dia..bukan seminggu aku menenun angan-angan utk hidup bersamanya..bukan sekali hatiku terhiris pedih kerana cinta yg tak kesampain....huhu... but I am wishing dat;

everything has its bride and

bride of me is wishing to be him

I wish my dreams come true

.: mEn : hypocrite :.

(aku rasa cam x best topic dulu,..so aku tkr entri tp point dier still sama .. tp advice tuk para lelaki..dont blame me ok!!! kan kenyataan...from the definition 'in the free dictionary'.. someone act as hypocrite means dat someone who leads you to believe something dat is not true..heheh)

cause I am your lady,

and you're my man,

whenever u reach for me,

i'll do all that i can...

of coz I'm sure u oll always alert wit the phrase above, rite? (ala.....normal la..) evelibadi shud had their own memories bout luv... (U oll pn mula lah teringat kisah2 dolu2 dgn ex2 @ wut we call scandal... hehe... ) u oll..dont hide something from me ya.. oll at my fingertips...

when we were in 'wut so called lovers' phase, we are willing to do anything ..(maklumla tgh hot bercinta katakan)...masa tu,....

If the road ahead

is not so easy

our love will lead the way for us

like a guiding star

hui...depa...masa bercinta, x pndg org lain dah.. lautan api sanggup kurenangi.. bukit bukau sanggup kuredahi...wow..phewittt... 1 more thing, loving couple ni normally doesnt want to hear all the dark side of his/her honey... kalau kita citer kebenaran psl honey dier, mulalah kata kita jeles...(ish..ish... jeles kerr...x kuasa i)... smetymes, they all nih promised anything masa bercinta sakan tuh..... u olls prnh dgr kn.. (or mmg u olls pn promised like dis with yr loves one kn?)..... apa geleng?..mesti pnya la... u oll sure prnh dgr ...

nothing gonna change my luv for u,

u ought to know by now how much I luv u

hold me now, touch me now,

I dont want to live without u..

one thing u can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than yr luv..

If I had to live my life

without u near me

da days would all be empty

da nite would been so long...

huhu.... org laki nih.. about to promise.... dialah yg juara... kononnya 'I cant live without u'.....
tp kalau tgk married couples,..bila wife dia meninggal,...tanah kubur merah basah lagik,..dh menggatai carik lain.... (dont be angry yer kaum Adam... it was proven ok... ) . Tu kes bercerai mati, kalau couple yg blom kawen laks bru gaduh2 manja sikit2,.. mula la rasa tak serasi... n mulala rasa 'dia bukan jodoh aku'....mulala nak merenyam n mengusha aweks lain...kan....kan? so, mana janji2 mu dulu?

mana kata janji manismu

oh kejamnya,..

lidah tidak bertulang

ungkapan cinta menghiris kalbu

kukan pergi membawa diri

cinta dihati terkubur lagi

so, aweks yg yg ditinggalkan kesian laks tgk...eveliday we found tears in her eyes, evelityme mata bengkak, eveliminute dok teringat, evelisecond dok tgk gmbr2 knangn,....isk2...x mo la....be strong ok.. kesian tgk tau......

she feels dat every single things dat she look, she eat, she drink, she wear etc were interrelated wit her past sweet memories with their ex-bf..... pakai baju pink bunga2 terkenang masa 1st time gi holiday berdua (hunnymun la kunun...), order noodles teringt pasal the first food they all mkn masa 1st dating, going to secret recipe remembered bout the place dat they went during their 1st anniversary...tgk couples skrg dh pndai ber 'anniversary'...biasala sambut gnap stahun they oll declare...isk..isk..

terlarut aku dlm kesendirian

saat aku menyedari

tiada lagi dirimu kini

sampai bila aku mampu bertahan

semua resah dihatiku ini

takkan terganti setiap kenangan yg telah terukir

akan melekat dihati

akankah berakhir

semua rasa yg telah tercipta

didalam benakku dan didlm rasaku

come on u oll...be strong..be brave..be tough ok... only u kan decide your own path...not other person.... u want yr life better or worst? cuba ingt kembali apa yg dia dh buat pd kita...

puas sudah kau melukakan

tiada pernah kau meyakinkan

hati ini yg selalu

mengharapkan kasihmu

kau biarkan kumeratap

mengemis cinta suci

terkenang kisah lalu

mengapa aku disiksa apakan tujuan dia

disini aku berdiri

bersaksi langit dan bumi

tertulis diazali hidupku

terputus sudah kasih sayang

ucapan keramat kau lepaskan

kutau kau sayang padaku

dunia turut rasakannya

mengapa dia yg kau cinta

dan aku dimana tempatnya

sabar aku tiada batasannya

kukorban cinta ini balasannya

tangis tak berairmata

rindu milik siapa

tinggal hanya satu nama

moga bahagia kan bersama

doa ku pohon padanya hanya tuhan lah yg tau

luka dihatiku...

tapi tulah,.... bila dia tinggalkan kita, whether on behalf of gurl or guy, kita tetap rasa dia adalah sahabat yg paling rapat dgn kita selain dari rasa cinta yg ada....btol x korangs? ..mcm la aku nih byk experience sgt... haha..so, bila yr ex mintak ingin jadi sahabat dunia akhirat after u oll 'divorced' (hehe),.... terimalah jika u oll rasa korang ckp kuat dan tabah hati when facing and meeting him..... wa tau maaa,....sbb bkn mudah nk totally forget yr past memories with him... sweet memories remains..tol?

mesti korang rasa very lonely masa saat2 awal 'divorced'.... kan berdua lebih baik?

lihatlah awan disana

berarak mengikutiku

pasti dia pun tau

ingin aku lewati

hidup yg tak indah

namun harus kujalani

berdua dgnmu

pasti lebih baik

aku yakiniku

bila bersendiri

hati bagai langit berselimut kabut

bukan tak boleh berkawan...kalau u oll still nak kawan dgn dia..pastikan u oll teguh hati..jgn terpedaya dgn pujuk rayunya lagi...takkan u wish him to make yr eyes tears again?....please ...please..please try to open yr heart, brief your mind tell yourself that u can live without him.

I can live

if living is live without

at first day you leave me

kept thinking I could never live without u

by my side

but after spending so many nites

thinking of how

u did me wrong

i grew strong

and learned how to carry on my life without u

u think I could lay down and die

oh no...no.....

u're wrong

i will survive

as long as i know how to love

i know i will still alive

i have got all my life to live

I have got all my love to give

to someone

Ingt lah bahawa bila u oll putus cinta, clash, frust (eh,..sama jer 3 phrase ni kan?hikhik) u oll still ada teman2 dan sahabat to depends on... yr friends still da best shoulder to cry on... (xpe la basah baju wa pun, wa sanggup der... asal lu x sedey2 lg...) remember dat yr pure love still there in future... think that he is not yr another half.... feel dat yr future another half is 100% better than him.... and please let him go in peace.....heheh..blh ker? cubalah...blum cuba blom tau kan.. u cant get da result until u try to do it...

'kebaikan itu dibungkus oleh hal2 yg tak disukai'

yes...totally true... bila kita hadapi hal2 yg kita x suka (kita x suka putus2 cinta nih kan?), anggaplah ianya bawa seribu rahmat tuk kita... yer lah...putus cinta means dat kita blh try carik new bf, new experience, blh tambah koleksi bf, tambah koleksi pic2 baru dlm album...hikhik.. (mcm playgurl lah plk).. but dat ideas motivated me so much... rasa cam 'eleh, dia ingat dia jer ker lelaki kat dunia nih' (eh,ye ker..pdhl masa frust dulu, aku rasa aku mogok seminggu x mkn nasik...heheh..trn 3kg)

Allh didnt promise dat our life would be

easy but He did promised to always

beside us in every step of our life

fiNaLLy.....

finally, I got what i want ...(who want to knows?..hahh? xder? x patutla korangs nih..at least give me support la sket)....yeah..i need to find a person to solve my daily problems..(yer la..aku nih eveliday ada problem..problemo btol lah...)

yeah...finally I found dat person was very closed to me, knew every single things bout me, can define me in and out, joy wit me when I'm in hapiness n clear off my tears when I'm in sadness (mcm aku sdiri jer..aku ke?...la...kalau tau dr awal kan snang..ceh)

yo..its me..(mmg aku la kna solve problem aku sdiri..x kan nk hrp org lain lak...biol tahap cipan tol)

peoples n frnds around me can only maps the ways, give me support, throw me advice... n I'm da one who will lead da way n destiny to solve my own problems....huhu..xder org lain ker?..only me, myself n I jer ker? mm...hampes tol...

from now on, I will regenerate my own spirit, confident n capabilities to fight wit all -ve elements in my life dat created troubles, ruined my smooth n calm life n jeopardized my success (hehe...ye ker?)

BUT... sng critalah...i really doesnt hv confident to fight wit all weaknesses in my life...lantak la ko,...malas aku nk pikir...haha..

and now.....syyy....I will tell u something...but please do not let anyone other than u knows bout thEsE secret.... DA BIG SECRET BOUT ME...it was....

I HATE CHALLENGE

I HATE ADVICE

I HATE COMPARISON

I HATE BEING FORCED

I HATE BEING LECTURED

I HATE BEING TORTURED

I HATE BEING A LEADER

tp knp yer... aku JRG ada sifat ingin melawan... i follllow.... he3... ntahla...dats mean, am I coward? hei....cannot be lahh...impossible..

aku bkn pengecut lah...but I was trained since my early age...I cant oppose n fight against my parents, da older person, teacher, anyone who give me knowledge n my superior...

sometimes, I love to read my Scorpio zodiac n from my name analysis (mana leh caya sgt bnda2 gini nih..hehe..) described me as:

CLAIRVOYANT.. (aku pn x tau mksd dia..muahaha)

NATURE LOVER...(yes...i am.....very much luv hiking, cycling n etc)

BORN to be a LEADER...(aku rasa mmg wrong person nih)

people LOOK UP to me...(why shud I?)

AMIABLE.....(ye ker?)

HONEST.....(really?....mm..hikhik)

totally INDEPENDANT

GOOD LOOKER....(try to be)

CLEVER

FAITHFUL towards family, friends n love....(OMG...luv to hv dis value in my life)

DEDICATED.....(yup...surely yes)

HARDWORKING....(mm.. of coz lah)

GIVE IMPORTANT WHERE DUE...(aku tgh practise nih)

SINFULLY SEXY....(mmm..really? hikhik)

DA BEST KISSER AMONG OL ZODIAC SIGN...(x try lg..mna nk tau..but mayb yes..haha)

LUCU & GILA2... (I dont believe it after all)

but actually i juz wanna live as what i am

and not as what u wanna me to be...definitely...

mY verY firsT entrY

3.39 a.m....30th June 2010

sALam aLL.....

first time try blogging..
mayb becoz of my jeolousy towards other's blog
especially blogs owned by my BFF
Mimi, Aslina, Huda, kak Baiti n kak Ana
u're my frnzs
u're my luv
u're my inspiration

hopefully my very first post
can slowly picturing me to others

hopefully my very first blog
will not disappointed others
since I'm not a novelist
I'm also neither a writer
nor a reporter...
hehe...

hopefully dis blog could be
a new mode of my life study
a new entry for others to enter into my life
a new excitement 4 me to complete my bored room
a new phase in my life to get joy n hapiness..

& I decided to share with u
all sadness n hapiness things happen in my life
juz for u.....


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::ku percaya ada cinta:: ~siti nurhaliza~

mereka meragui wujudnya
cinta yg sejati
tidak hati ini
sejak dari mula
kuyakin ada cinta
cintalah yg memungkinkan segala

kuyakin biar btapa pn
perit tertusuk duri
jln berliku tiada bertepi
kupercaya tidak sia-sia aku diuji
demi cinta tersembunyi
hikmahNya pasti

pandang-pandg alam ini
sambil pandang difikiri
mana bumbung langit tinggi
mana lantai bumi
tidak satu yg terjadi
tidak mungkin tersendiri
cuba cari jawapannya andai meragui

ada hikmah yg yg pasti
sejak mula kupercaya ada cinta
cinta itu memungkinkan segalanya
cinta suci yg abadi..

**pErmULaAn juLai yG peNuH dGn kEiNsAfAn**

smlm ms bc paper, aku terbca psl sorg siswa mati lemas..

(kira kes mati mengejut la ek..)

takut lak rs...rs cam byk dosa lak..

kalau tetiba dijmput ilahi..cmner yek?

dosa2 dulu byk gak, smyg x abih qada'...

posa taun ni pn ada lgi x ganti pdhal bkn byk mna pn...

posa wajib tinggal sbuln jer lgi nih (moga diberi kemudahan) ..

huhu.. alim ulamak kata kna slalu ingt mati...

tp bila nk ingt tu, takut la plk...

yer lah...amalan x byk...

kdg2 prnh mnangis trknang dosa yg byk

terhimpun dibahu tp xkn takat nangis jer...

mana usaha akunya? mana amalan akunya?

x gandakn pun...takat yg wajib, ramai leh buat..

huhu (mna pahala2 aku yg sunat?

x kan xde sesen pn utk dibawa ngadap Yg Esa?

moga2 permulaan julai ni,

aku dpt mnggandakan ibadah (Insya'Allah)

sbg amaln istiqamah mnuju Ramadhan...Amin..

InTrO..

22th June 2010..2.29 p.m..

monink evelibadi.....

1st of all,..welkam to my 1st blog.... I decided to jot in blog to express my feeling of anger, anxiety, happiness and sadness since no one was beside me dat I can rely on................................

To my dearest abah.. I luv u so much :-)

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abah,

u're my sweetheart,

u're da greatest person in my life,

u're willing to do wut other people can't do,

u're an angel of my life,

abah,

being yr 5th child,

i was speechless,

there ain't words that

parallel with yr contribution

towards my success now,..

abah,

on yr 65th burfday,

u still struggle for work,

u said u're happy wit wut u're doing now,

but I know,

it seems difficult to u,

to just relax without doing anything,

coz u're struggle for our life yourselves,

since yr 1st child born,

we don't even know the phrase 'difficulties in life',

becoz we do get wateva we want,

from da small size to da big size,

from da cheapest value to da greatest value,..

ol at our fingertips,..

abah,

forgive me,

if ol my past wrong doing always hurt u,

although u never express yr angry,

i know my acted was touched yr heart,

forgive me,

if u shame to hd me as yr daughter,

hd my siblings as yr children..

abah,

as long as da sun shine,

as long as da moon light,

my luv for u never dies..

abah,

I can't imagine my life without u,

it will be nothing...