.: mEn : hypocrite :.

(aku rasa cam x best topic dulu,..so aku tkr entri tp point dier still sama .. tp advice tuk para lelaki..dont blame me ok!!! kan kenyataan...from the definition 'in the free dictionary'.. someone act as hypocrite means dat someone who leads you to believe something dat is not true..heheh)

cause I am your lady,

and you're my man,

whenever u reach for me,

i'll do all that i can...

of coz I'm sure u oll always alert wit the phrase above, rite? (ala.....normal la..) evelibadi shud had their own memories bout luv... (U oll pn mula lah teringat kisah2 dolu2 dgn ex2 @ wut we call scandal... hehe... ) u oll..dont hide something from me ya.. oll at my fingertips...

when we were in 'wut so called lovers' phase, we are willing to do anything ..(maklumla tgh hot bercinta katakan)...masa tu,....

If the road ahead

is not so easy

our love will lead the way for us

like a guiding star

hui...depa...masa bercinta, x pndg org lain dah.. lautan api sanggup kurenangi.. bukit bukau sanggup kuredahi...wow..phewittt... 1 more thing, loving couple ni normally doesnt want to hear all the dark side of his/her honey... kalau kita citer kebenaran psl honey dier, mulalah kata kita jeles...(ish..ish... jeles kerr...x kuasa i)... smetymes, they all nih promised anything masa bercinta sakan tuh..... u olls prnh dgr kn.. (or mmg u olls pn promised like dis with yr loves one kn?)..... apa geleng?..mesti pnya la... u oll sure prnh dgr ...

nothing gonna change my luv for u,

u ought to know by now how much I luv u

hold me now, touch me now,

I dont want to live without u..

one thing u can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than yr luv..

If I had to live my life

without u near me

da days would all be empty

da nite would been so long...

huhu.... org laki nih.. about to promise.... dialah yg juara... kononnya 'I cant live without u'.....
tp kalau tgk married couples,..bila wife dia meninggal,...tanah kubur merah basah lagik,..dh menggatai carik lain.... (dont be angry yer kaum Adam... it was proven ok... ) . Tu kes bercerai mati, kalau couple yg blom kawen laks bru gaduh2 manja sikit2,.. mula la rasa tak serasi... n mulala rasa 'dia bukan jodoh aku'....mulala nak merenyam n mengusha aweks lain...kan....kan? so, mana janji2 mu dulu?

mana kata janji manismu

oh kejamnya,..

lidah tidak bertulang

ungkapan cinta menghiris kalbu

kukan pergi membawa diri

cinta dihati terkubur lagi

so, aweks yg yg ditinggalkan kesian laks tgk...eveliday we found tears in her eyes, evelityme mata bengkak, eveliminute dok teringat, evelisecond dok tgk gmbr2 knangn,....isk2...x mo la....be strong ok.. kesian tgk tau......

she feels dat every single things dat she look, she eat, she drink, she wear etc were interrelated wit her past sweet memories with their ex-bf..... pakai baju pink bunga2 terkenang masa 1st time gi holiday berdua (hunnymun la kunun...), order noodles teringt pasal the first food they all mkn masa 1st dating, going to secret recipe remembered bout the place dat they went during their 1st anniversary...tgk couples skrg dh pndai ber 'anniversary'...biasala sambut gnap stahun they oll declare...isk..isk..

terlarut aku dlm kesendirian

saat aku menyedari

tiada lagi dirimu kini

sampai bila aku mampu bertahan

semua resah dihatiku ini

takkan terganti setiap kenangan yg telah terukir

akan melekat dihati

akankah berakhir

semua rasa yg telah tercipta

didalam benakku dan didlm rasaku

come on u oll...be strong..be brave..be tough ok... only u kan decide your own path...not other person.... u want yr life better or worst? cuba ingt kembali apa yg dia dh buat pd kita...

puas sudah kau melukakan

tiada pernah kau meyakinkan

hati ini yg selalu

mengharapkan kasihmu

kau biarkan kumeratap

mengemis cinta suci

terkenang kisah lalu

mengapa aku disiksa apakan tujuan dia

disini aku berdiri

bersaksi langit dan bumi

tertulis diazali hidupku

terputus sudah kasih sayang

ucapan keramat kau lepaskan

kutau kau sayang padaku

dunia turut rasakannya

mengapa dia yg kau cinta

dan aku dimana tempatnya

sabar aku tiada batasannya

kukorban cinta ini balasannya

tangis tak berairmata

rindu milik siapa

tinggal hanya satu nama

moga bahagia kan bersama

doa ku pohon padanya hanya tuhan lah yg tau

luka dihatiku...

tapi tulah,.... bila dia tinggalkan kita, whether on behalf of gurl or guy, kita tetap rasa dia adalah sahabat yg paling rapat dgn kita selain dari rasa cinta yg ada....btol x korangs? ..mcm la aku nih byk experience sgt... haha..so, bila yr ex mintak ingin jadi sahabat dunia akhirat after u oll 'divorced' (hehe),.... terimalah jika u oll rasa korang ckp kuat dan tabah hati when facing and meeting him..... wa tau maaa,....sbb bkn mudah nk totally forget yr past memories with him... sweet memories remains..tol?

mesti korang rasa very lonely masa saat2 awal 'divorced'.... kan berdua lebih baik?

lihatlah awan disana

berarak mengikutiku

pasti dia pun tau

ingin aku lewati

hidup yg tak indah

namun harus kujalani

berdua dgnmu

pasti lebih baik

aku yakiniku

bila bersendiri

hati bagai langit berselimut kabut

bukan tak boleh berkawan...kalau u oll still nak kawan dgn dia..pastikan u oll teguh hati..jgn terpedaya dgn pujuk rayunya lagi...takkan u wish him to make yr eyes tears again?....please ...please..please try to open yr heart, brief your mind tell yourself that u can live without him.

I can live

if living is live without

at first day you leave me

kept thinking I could never live without u

by my side

but after spending so many nites

thinking of how

u did me wrong

i grew strong

and learned how to carry on my life without u

u think I could lay down and die

oh no...no.....

u're wrong

i will survive

as long as i know how to love

i know i will still alive

i have got all my life to live

I have got all my love to give

to someone

Ingt lah bahawa bila u oll putus cinta, clash, frust (eh,..sama jer 3 phrase ni kan?hikhik) u oll still ada teman2 dan sahabat to depends on... yr friends still da best shoulder to cry on... (xpe la basah baju wa pun, wa sanggup der... asal lu x sedey2 lg...) remember dat yr pure love still there in future... think that he is not yr another half.... feel dat yr future another half is 100% better than him.... and please let him go in peace.....heheh..blh ker? cubalah...blum cuba blom tau kan.. u cant get da result until u try to do it...

'kebaikan itu dibungkus oleh hal2 yg tak disukai'

yes...totally true... bila kita hadapi hal2 yg kita x suka (kita x suka putus2 cinta nih kan?), anggaplah ianya bawa seribu rahmat tuk kita... yer lah...putus cinta means dat kita blh try carik new bf, new experience, blh tambah koleksi bf, tambah koleksi pic2 baru dlm album...hikhik.. (mcm playgurl lah plk).. but dat ideas motivated me so much... rasa cam 'eleh, dia ingat dia jer ker lelaki kat dunia nih' (eh,ye ker..pdhl masa frust dulu, aku rasa aku mogok seminggu x mkn nasik...heheh..trn 3kg)

Allh didnt promise dat our life would be

easy but He did promised to always

beside us in every step of our life

fiNaLLy.....

finally, I got what i want ...(who want to knows?..hahh? xder? x patutla korangs nih..at least give me support la sket)....yeah..i need to find a person to solve my daily problems..(yer la..aku nih eveliday ada problem..problemo btol lah...)

yeah...finally I found dat person was very closed to me, knew every single things bout me, can define me in and out, joy wit me when I'm in hapiness n clear off my tears when I'm in sadness (mcm aku sdiri jer..aku ke?...la...kalau tau dr awal kan snang..ceh)

yo..its me..(mmg aku la kna solve problem aku sdiri..x kan nk hrp org lain lak...biol tahap cipan tol)

peoples n frnds around me can only maps the ways, give me support, throw me advice... n I'm da one who will lead da way n destiny to solve my own problems....huhu..xder org lain ker?..only me, myself n I jer ker? mm...hampes tol...

from now on, I will regenerate my own spirit, confident n capabilities to fight wit all -ve elements in my life dat created troubles, ruined my smooth n calm life n jeopardized my success (hehe...ye ker?)

BUT... sng critalah...i really doesnt hv confident to fight wit all weaknesses in my life...lantak la ko,...malas aku nk pikir...haha..

and now.....syyy....I will tell u something...but please do not let anyone other than u knows bout thEsE secret.... DA BIG SECRET BOUT ME...it was....

I HATE CHALLENGE

I HATE ADVICE

I HATE COMPARISON

I HATE BEING FORCED

I HATE BEING LECTURED

I HATE BEING TORTURED

I HATE BEING A LEADER

tp knp yer... aku JRG ada sifat ingin melawan... i follllow.... he3... ntahla...dats mean, am I coward? hei....cannot be lahh...impossible..

aku bkn pengecut lah...but I was trained since my early age...I cant oppose n fight against my parents, da older person, teacher, anyone who give me knowledge n my superior...

sometimes, I love to read my Scorpio zodiac n from my name analysis (mana leh caya sgt bnda2 gini nih..hehe..) described me as:

CLAIRVOYANT.. (aku pn x tau mksd dia..muahaha)

NATURE LOVER...(yes...i am.....very much luv hiking, cycling n etc)

BORN to be a LEADER...(aku rasa mmg wrong person nih)

people LOOK UP to me...(why shud I?)

AMIABLE.....(ye ker?)

HONEST.....(really?....mm..hikhik)

totally INDEPENDANT

GOOD LOOKER....(try to be)

CLEVER

FAITHFUL towards family, friends n love....(OMG...luv to hv dis value in my life)

DEDICATED.....(yup...surely yes)

HARDWORKING....(mm.. of coz lah)

GIVE IMPORTANT WHERE DUE...(aku tgh practise nih)

SINFULLY SEXY....(mmm..really? hikhik)

DA BEST KISSER AMONG OL ZODIAC SIGN...(x try lg..mna nk tau..but mayb yes..haha)

LUCU & GILA2... (I dont believe it after all)

but actually i juz wanna live as what i am

and not as what u wanna me to be...definitely...

mY verY firsT entrY

3.39 a.m....30th June 2010

sALam aLL.....

first time try blogging..
mayb becoz of my jeolousy towards other's blog
especially blogs owned by my BFF
Mimi, Aslina, Huda, kak Baiti n kak Ana
u're my frnzs
u're my luv
u're my inspiration

hopefully my very first post
can slowly picturing me to others

hopefully my very first blog
will not disappointed others
since I'm not a novelist
I'm also neither a writer
nor a reporter...
hehe...

hopefully dis blog could be
a new mode of my life study
a new entry for others to enter into my life
a new excitement 4 me to complete my bored room
a new phase in my life to get joy n hapiness..

& I decided to share with u
all sadness n hapiness things happen in my life
juz for u.....


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::ku percaya ada cinta:: ~siti nurhaliza~

mereka meragui wujudnya
cinta yg sejati
tidak hati ini
sejak dari mula
kuyakin ada cinta
cintalah yg memungkinkan segala

kuyakin biar btapa pn
perit tertusuk duri
jln berliku tiada bertepi
kupercaya tidak sia-sia aku diuji
demi cinta tersembunyi
hikmahNya pasti

pandang-pandg alam ini
sambil pandang difikiri
mana bumbung langit tinggi
mana lantai bumi
tidak satu yg terjadi
tidak mungkin tersendiri
cuba cari jawapannya andai meragui

ada hikmah yg yg pasti
sejak mula kupercaya ada cinta
cinta itu memungkinkan segalanya
cinta suci yg abadi..

**pErmULaAn juLai yG peNuH dGn kEiNsAfAn**

smlm ms bc paper, aku terbca psl sorg siswa mati lemas..

(kira kes mati mengejut la ek..)

takut lak rs...rs cam byk dosa lak..

kalau tetiba dijmput ilahi..cmner yek?

dosa2 dulu byk gak, smyg x abih qada'...

posa taun ni pn ada lgi x ganti pdhal bkn byk mna pn...

posa wajib tinggal sbuln jer lgi nih (moga diberi kemudahan) ..

huhu.. alim ulamak kata kna slalu ingt mati...

tp bila nk ingt tu, takut la plk...

yer lah...amalan x byk...

kdg2 prnh mnangis trknang dosa yg byk

terhimpun dibahu tp xkn takat nangis jer...

mana usaha akunya? mana amalan akunya?

x gandakn pun...takat yg wajib, ramai leh buat..

huhu (mna pahala2 aku yg sunat?

x kan xde sesen pn utk dibawa ngadap Yg Esa?

moga2 permulaan julai ni,

aku dpt mnggandakan ibadah (Insya'Allah)

sbg amaln istiqamah mnuju Ramadhan...Amin..

InTrO..

22th June 2010..2.29 p.m..

monink evelibadi.....

1st of all,..welkam to my 1st blog.... I decided to jot in blog to express my feeling of anger, anxiety, happiness and sadness since no one was beside me dat I can rely on................................

To my dearest abah.. I luv u so much :-)

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abah,

u're my sweetheart,

u're da greatest person in my life,

u're willing to do wut other people can't do,

u're an angel of my life,

abah,

being yr 5th child,

i was speechless,

there ain't words that

parallel with yr contribution

towards my success now,..

abah,

on yr 65th burfday,

u still struggle for work,

u said u're happy wit wut u're doing now,

but I know,

it seems difficult to u,

to just relax without doing anything,

coz u're struggle for our life yourselves,

since yr 1st child born,

we don't even know the phrase 'difficulties in life',

becoz we do get wateva we want,

from da small size to da big size,

from da cheapest value to da greatest value,..

ol at our fingertips,..

abah,

forgive me,

if ol my past wrong doing always hurt u,

although u never express yr angry,

i know my acted was touched yr heart,

forgive me,

if u shame to hd me as yr daughter,

hd my siblings as yr children..

abah,

as long as da sun shine,

as long as da moon light,

my luv for u never dies..

abah,

I can't imagine my life without u,

it will be nothing...